December 25, 2009

• Merry Christmas! Gift of Mercy

       Merry Christmas! We can say this to others over the years. Yet, is it a robotic greeting or is it what one feels down deep as it shows through ones eyes?

       This year, I have been quiet when it comes to writing due to so much going on. Sometimes, when one is in the middle of a lesson if one starts to write, is the understanding even there to even be writing?  Can I even write now? Yes.  Lately, every time I open my Bible the subject of Mercy is there before me and God is my strength to defend me and more.

       In these last years, there has been so much betrayal in ways that I can't even go into due to how it could discourage those to hear.  What is faith? That question as I seek sincerity of faith in fellowship with others and seeking God due to so many reasons.

       In the last few months some answers have finally came but it took a greater point of brokeness in my life to even start to learn answers I have been seeking.  If just spoken to me by another, would I have ever understood it the way I do now? I know I have far more to learn.

       Jealousy and pride can reek such havoc anywhere! Yet, one who is hurt can become blinded to much also and start hurting others.  Sometimes, it is best to step back and seek God. Yet, seeking is so much more than a word. It is an action that must become a desire as much as to eat food or drink water to live. The desire to what we seek can relate to what we find.  If we seek little we may find little.

       I intended to share more details in this blog but still don't have the freedom to do so. Yet, the root of it, is that to understand mercy more you must give it rather than receive it. We all can want it. Yet, giving can be harder than recieve.  I spend most of my life trying to encourage others to the point of it about destroying me financially, socially, spiritually, and almost to the point of my life in these last few years. The question was after the destruction will I still reach out to encourage others or give up to become like so many others?  

       God has given us mercy and so much more if we humble ourselves before Him to receive it. Will we swallow pride to even ask forgiveness? Do bullies like to admit they are bullies?  Yet, God has forgiveness waiting for us all.  It is a gift for us to accept. We can talk about that word but not live it.  We can talk about change but just change how we hurt another.  

        Yet, sincerely giving Mercy is also gives a gift back to the giver which is a peace and joy that is better than any high in life. It gives energy to work harder to encourage others.  We can talk about it, yet acting on it is another issue. Yet, one must continually act/live in it toward others to receive the fruit of peace and joy that it gives back to the one living/acting on it.

        There is a difference when you live in it verses talking/writing about it. Our Lord Jesus is not  blind but in control as He deals with things in His own timing.  Yet, sometimes, it takes us getting broken to such a point that there is no where else to go but to turn from God or live it stronger. I still can not imagine/fathom/comprehend how we all can betray Jesus each day with our lives when HE has given us so much!

        This Christmas Day has been like no other. The days, months, years leading up to this time, I prefer not to go through again, yet would my Faith in Jesus be as strong without it? Sadly, no, due to I would be relying on myself more than Jesus.   It worked out in unexpected ways to be alone this day which has been an unexpected gift in its own way to seek more.  In 16 hours, I will be with family. Praise God for blowing snow! We chose to complain or we can praise! Yet, when we praise through things that look bad to the world it can hold great blessings to come for us when we praise!

        The Gift of Mercy has a cost other than a dollar amount but it is worth it both ways it goes!

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