People can think they are right in their own eyes. One person can take a certian verse in the Holy Bible to make it say what they want it to say even if they take it out of context.  I praise God that He is Judge!!! We will find so much truth upon our death!!! Then it is too late. Yet, as we continue to seek more of who God is in our relationship with God over the years as we sincerely try to live for Him despite how we can mess up at times even when it comes to attitudes and actions.

     Matthew 7:1-2 (KJV)

     1  Judge not, that ye be not judged. 2  For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.

     Our choices reflect what will happen to us by what we are held accountable to. If we love people and show mercy then likewise for us. People in their own guilt can condemn themselves and not even realize it when they see or hear of something not even directed at them but they can take it personally.  Sad is when we are jealous of anothers blessings when they have lived for God but another has lived for themselves in doing what they wanted to do their own way contrary to scripture. A person can even live for themselves yet claiming to be Christians as we get from the example of the sheep and goats (Matthew 7: 21-23).

      Romans 2:1-11  (KJV)

      1 Therefore thou art inexcusable, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest: for wherein thou judgest another, thou condemnest thyself; for thou that judgest doest the same things.

 2 But we are sure that the judgment of God is according to truth against them which commit such things.

 3 And thinkest thou this, O man, that judgest them which do such things, and doest the same, that thou shalt escape the judgment of God?

 4 Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?

 5 But after thy hardness and impenitent heart treasurest up unto thyself wrath against the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of God;

 6 Who will render to every man according to his deeds:

 7 To them who by patient continuance in well doing seek for glory and honour and immortality, eternal life:

 8 But unto them that are contentious, and do not obey the truth, but obey unrighteousness, indignation and wrath,

 9 Tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man that doeth evil, of the Jew first, and also of the Gentile;

 10 But glory, honour, and peace, to every man that worketh good, to the Jew first, and also to the Gentile:

 11 For there is no respect of persons with God.

       Sometimes, we forget that we too were once sinners before we came to Jesus Christ ourselves. Or, that we too mess up after we come to God even if we are blind to it! Praise God He is there to forgive us! Yet, we must repent and turn from it. Yet, we may be doing that repeatedly depending how much we struggle with it. Yet, it is sad when some are blind that they may struggle with it. How many people will we hurt until we do?  How many people we will turn away from God until we do?  Will their blood be on our hands when we turn them away from God? 

        Will we judge people by the hate or jealousy we have in our own lives as we act accordingly? Or will we love people and encourage them gently toward God as God does for us?

        When God gives us the example of the sheep and goats, despite how many times we can read those scriptures we can think it does not apply to us? It takes love to encourage another due to what the reaction can be of the one that we are trying to encourage. Yet, it is very much worth the risk. How sad would it be for us if people we love are found to be goats upon their death by God?  How can we say we love them if we did not encourage them? Yet, again it goes back to their choices they get to make. It is a sobering and humble thought along judging others. Can our judging others by our own measure in the end hurt us?  Bottom line, we need to love people even if the people we love can not see that we love them due to their own blindness from this world.  God is not about hating others in our actions or attitudes. Our pride can hurt in so many ways we can be blind to which affects our actions. 

     Many talk about a lot of things. Yet, those who actually live for God in their actions as they love people despite what can be done to them by others really challenge me so much. When a person who does not have much materially or even much education lives a sincere life for God, they are far wiser and rich in eternal value. It is in the little things of daily life as they live that challenge me. Many talk a lot but those that live  it challenge me. 

      Some of those that encourage me may not know lots of scripture by memory or studied for hours but they live the little they do know. Children can see something and say it in such a way that can stop me in my tracks with a simple explanation that adults can go on and on about.

       Psalms 37 is so rich in encouraging us to trust the Lord in all things. God is not blind. He is in control. Living this chapter is far more a challenge to me than just telling somebody about it. Our actions speak louder than our words ever will. We can fool people with our words but given enough time our action show if our words match. These days people are looking to see people's words and actions match when they talk about Jesus Christ. So many say so much but can live so little. It confuses people.

       Cleaning up another's vomit and being sincerely kind to them in the process shows so much rather than cleaning up another's vomit in disgust of it all. Actions/attitudes  can speak so much louder than words

Psalms 37 (KJV)

1Fret not thyself because of evildoers, neither be thou envious against the workers of iniquity.

 2For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb.

 3Trust in the LORD, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.

 4Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

 5Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.

 6And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.

 7Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.

 8Cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.

 9For evildoers shall be cut off: but those that wait upon the LORD, they shall inherit the earth.

 10For yet a little while, and the wicked shall not be: yea, thou shalt diligently consider his place, and it shall not be.

 11But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.

 12The wicked plotteth against the just, and gnasheth upon him with his teeth.

 13The LORD shall laugh at him: for he seeth that his day is coming.

 14The wicked have drawn out the sword, and have bent their bow, to cast down the poor and needy, and to slay such as be of upright conversation.

 15Their sword shall enter into their own heart, and their bows shall be broken.

 16A little that a righteous man hath is better than the riches of many wicked.

 17For the arms of the wicked shall be broken: but the LORD upholdeth the righteous.

 18The LORD knoweth the days of the upright: and their inheritance shall be for ever.

 19They shall not be ashamed in the evil time: and in the days of famine they shall be satisfied.

 20But the wicked shall perish, and the enemies of the LORD shall be as the fat of lambs: they shall consume; into smoke shall they consume away.

 21The wicked borroweth, and payeth not again: but the righteous sheweth mercy, and giveth.

 22For such as be blessed of him shall inherit the earth; and they that be cursed of him shall be cut off.

 23The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.

 24Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the LORD upholdeth him with his hand.

 25I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.

 26He is ever merciful, and lendeth; and his seed is blessed.

 27Depart from evil, and do good; and dwell for evermore.

 28For the LORD loveth judgment, and forsaketh not his saints; they are preserved for ever: but the seed of the wicked shall be cut off.

 29The righteous shall inherit the land, and dwell therein for ever.

 30The mouth of the righteous speaketh wisdom, and his tongue talketh of judgment.

 31The law of his God is in his heart; none of his steps shall slide.

 32The wicked watcheth the righteous, and seeketh to slay him.

 33The LORD will not leave him in his hand, nor condemn him when he is judged.

 34Wait on the LORD, and keep his way, and he shall exalt thee to inherit the land: when the wicked are cut off, thou shalt see it.

 35I have seen the wicked in great power, and spreading himself like a green bay tree.

 36Yet he passed away, and, lo, he was not: yea, I sought him, but he could not be found.

 37Mark the perfect man, and behold the upright: for the end of that man is peace.

 38But the transgressors shall be destroyed together: the end of the wicked shall be cut off.

 39But the salvation of the righteous is of the LORD: he is their strength in the time of trouble.

 40And the LORD shall help them, and deliver them: he shall deliver them from the wicked, and save them, because they trust in him.

   Hello! This year has been amazing in ways of growing in various ways. Yet, I realize I must grow in other ways also for what the Lord can be leading in the future and current time. I'm taking some classes on line which is taking up computer time otherwise spent at times. Yet, in turn these classes will aid in helping others if and when the need arrives. The world is an ever changing place as events unfold.

    We have doubts at times where we are being led at times due to various reasons. Yet, this year confirmed many for me. Some say they need a frying pan to knock some sense into them but I think I needed something bigger due to being so stubborn!!! Yet, it showed me things I did not realize before. We can be so entrenched in man's way of thinking that we can't see beyond in what God is doing.  In ways, it has been a sifting experience which I believe will continue for sometime. I know I'm alive for a reason.  I don't want to waste it! Or, fail in that reason given to me as I discover more and more of  it.

     Psalms 118:8 (KJV)

     It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man.

     Humans will betray you throughout life in various ways. Yet, God is a constant source of strength we are given a choice to follow. Yet, to grow in a relationship with God does take time and a desire to seek. It is active not a passive choice to make. I can sit down and relax during watching TV but what do I learn? It depends on what channel  I chose to watch. If I want to remember a good recipe shown to me I can't just sit there and remember it but must take action to write some notes down to remember it.

      This verse and others similiar are becoming more real to me. We can read them or hear them but until we sincerely act on them they don't start sinking deeper into our lives to live by. A life of faith is based on acting in it not just watching people and words go by us as we passively watch. When we learn things do we apply them? Do I act on them? Or, passively let them go by until I see it go by again. I may mean or intend to do something with them but do I in reality?

      Am I just going to talk about this verse or actually practice to live by this verse? What I do will affect who I am able to encourage and how God blesses later in life.

      I must admit, after being single all these years, I do think I have been trying to act on this verse in at least one way!!! I pray I continue to do it in many more ways!!! 

      This last Friday was interesting.  A friendship that I have had since college came to a point of needing to talk one on one as the talk could make or break the friendship. I had tried to talk a few months prior alone but it did not seem to resolve anything. This time I brought another person who we both valued. She did not like the fact the third person was coming due to she had an experience where several friends before had bombarded her with facts of her life and it did not go well for her friendships with them since. Years I ago I heard from both sides in general terms of the situation but some of same issues were driving the wedge in our existing friendship.  I tried to tell myself she just didn't understand where they had been getting at and informed the third person a little about the years back in order for understanding to build this girl up not destroy her. I wanted her to remain as freinds despite what it has been building up to.

      Praise the Lord!  She was not thrilled when we arrived as she reminded me of the previous encounter of years ago with more than one person came to talk with her.  In ways, it seemed like she was expecting the worse with her eyes determined not to be the underdog. I valued her as a friend and our mutual friend did also as we had this meeting not to lose her as a friend despite some actions going on.

     Praise the Lord for the mutual friend there that help both of us explain the other that much more and able to have a third person veiw on the situation despite only being friends for aprox 3 years.  We were not there to attack her but to say we loved her and stand up to her gently. I was able to bring up the past only as an example in some things that had not changed in life. I think in ways she was able to see things she had not been able to see then as she has aged and the mutual friend pointing out things still similiar and destructive. Yet, better understanding was needed ON ALL OF US. No human on this earth currently is perfect in friendship. If we did not talk this out, I do believe this last bit could have destroyed the friendship. Frustration has a way to be destructive.  Yet, the friendship is stronger now due to the conversation we had Friday night and peace is there.  That night turned out to be encouragement for both of us.

     I have had similiar situations/talks with others that have not gone as well. Yet, this friend had sincere faith in Jesus and lives trying to please God.  She is a really good girl who has been waiting for God to work in her life in certain areas. She has followed God's way instead of the world's way in lots of things. I dreaded that talk in what could result from it if it didn't go well. At times, I have fear instead of faith!!! My bad!!! My failing! Yet, the mutual friend who truly cared for both sides did really help the situation in being able to present additional facts/situations in a caring way yet not afraid to state the unpleasant to get to the point.  We asked God to help us fix the situation not end it.

     Friday night was an encouragement of what was to come during the next days.  Some people would rather destroy others out of greed, jealousy, and more through manipulation/control.  My big problem is keeping my mouth shut at times for years and endure things. I pray instead of act at times.  I keep my mouth shut instead of speaking up when I know I need to in hopes of peace from it. I keep forgetting about the choice God gives to people to chose how they live their lives. In the last few months I have learned that keeping your mouth shut can give you regret later in life due to things can only get worse over the years. Can it ever be too late to stand up? Too much damage/destruction done by others as I have kept quiet? I may say a few things but not enough to ever make the difference?  "With God all things are possible'' !!!!! I can't forget that! There is a time to speak and a time to pray.  People will make their choices. I must remember it is God who changes the heart of another not humans when it comes Him.

     I do praise the Lord for the friendship that grew deeper Friday night.  I do need her sincere frienship and fellowship with God!  The three of us grew closer and know God will bless it! No voices were raised as the air was cleared. No human is perfect but forgiven when confess things before God.

     I will be absent from the internet for a few days.  Some things have come up to take care of.

     Praise the Lord for all He has done this year and He continues to forgive us! Thank you Lord for doing things we can't see with our eyes but must have faith in what You are doing around us in Your timing! Thank you for your patience with us as we learn patience in our faith as we grow. Thank you for the people you have already and bring into our lives as they fit in various places in them. Thank you for giving us talents to share with others for Your glory!  Open our eyes to know the battles You want us to fight and directions for others. Thank you for all Your healing this year as You continue! Peaise You Lord, that You are there when we seek You! Praise you for encouraging us to have expectant hearts of what You will be doing next instead of doubting of what You are doing or even hearing us. Thank You for giving us Your Word to study and learn about You more! Thank You for giving us a choice to Worship and live for You.  Please help me understand and pray for acceptance in ways when people don't chose you. Please help me to continue to pray for them until they  chose You! Praise the Lord that their eyes can be open to you even within the year! Thank you for choices so we are not robots! Our faith can limit us so much in growing as we learn more about living in faith instead of fear!!

      Thank You for so much not written here! I praise You for knowing my heart!!!! Thank You for all You do!!!

    I work tonight and tomorrow night. During the holidays we can have things happen in our lives that last as memories for the rest of our lives. I pray the Lord gives us all His directions and wisdom as we engage in others lives that we can be encouraging to those we meet.  When we smile  or take the time to encourage in whatever way we are led to do, we may never know the far reaching extent it can be.  There are so many ways God leads us to encourage others. I pray I am not too distracted to listen to our Heavenly Father's gentle promptings during these next few days that can result in lasting memories in others lives!

     For Bob's family and friends, this is a time of a memory as God is blessing Him with healing as he is able recognize them and acknowledge on his road to recovery in God's healing time!!! Praise the Lord!!! Again, thank you for your prayers for him and his family/freinds during this time.

     Thank you for your prayers as the family is ever grateful of them knowing God is the source of healing as He directs the Doctors and Nurses caring for him.  God is gradually healing Bob. Praise the Lord!!! I heard that is was easier for Tom to leave Sunday as he saw improvment with his Father. His Father was able to move one side of his body and recognize people as he would look at them and squeeze a hand a little. Plus, they are able to give him medication that he needs for his heart and time has passed for it to be safer for his brain of the possiblity of it bleeding again there as it is healing. Family was made aware of the fact that Bob could be in the hospital for a few weeks as he recovers more before he goes home.  Praise the Lord for all He is doing in ways we can't see or understand at this time!!!!

      Long shift last night as God is my Strength as I relied on Him throughout it as once we started rolling we did not come back till a couple hours to finish up paperwork. Slept hard today as working through the weekend.

      Psalms 46: 1-2

     1  God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

      2  Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountians be carried into the midst of the sea.

     As I'm going through Psalms it keeps repeating to me that the Lord is our strength, refuge, and salvation through all things as each Psalms can give examples. God is not blind to those who seek Him!!! There are some amazing words written as I try to apply them to my life and heart to believe fully without just knowledge of it like Satan also has. I don't just want knowledge of it but to live it with faith.

     Yet, how do we live it with faith? Going through things where you sincerely have to depend on God in faith to get it done in various ways. I'm trying to transition more into living it stronger verses just  knowing of it.  What will come out of my life when I'm tested can show me or even others if I do live by faith or just knowledge. I know I have far to go, yet praise the Lord for a life with the  opportunity to practice more! Praise the Lord! He has forgiveness for me when I fail as I ask for it! 

     A couple days ago Tom saw his Father's eyes open and assumed he was alert and looking at him.  He later found out that that was not true as his Father is under heavy sedation.  He was given some peace by the Doctors that his Father's medications that will help him not remember this ordeal.

    Currently, I praying that our dear healing Heavenly Father and praising that the fever will take care of what it needs to do and go away. Likewise with the other complications since this has been happening. I continue to pray for peace for the family and friends that are in that area being so supportive through prayer and many other avenues for the family there.

    I praise the Lord for working in many ways there. I pray this is a time where faith in our Lord will become stronger as we fight what we can't see more than what we can!

    Why do I have a special concern for my Sister's Father-in-law? Tom's family lost their Mother as we lost our Father within a year of each other before the fall Holidays. Tom's Mother died of a quick stint of unexpected cancer that was discovered after the holidays that year as our Father was killed instantly in a wreck before the Holidays that next year.  Our families for the next few years did holidays together which was a wonderful blessing.  Bob remarried a wonderful Christian lady who was a friend of the family whose Husband died of medical issues. God has wonderful ways of providing of things.  Yet, this wonderful couple continued having my Mother come with my Sister and Tom when they went for Christmas time visit each year basically since. It was a relief to me that my Mother was able to go with my Sister as I normaly work through the holidays. For some reason people don't stop getting sick or injured during the holidays throughout the year.

    God has blessed our family as my Sister married Tom in wonderful ways including through Bob and spending those first Holiday seasons together. We also get together for Easter back then as it was considedered as big as Christmas and Thanksgiving.  Bob has been caring whenever seen as Tom has shared him with us. We share our Mother with Tom even if God has blessed him with a wonderful Stepmother and additional family. Tom's younger Brother Rich has a sense of humor that can light up a room. Years pass as we all have moved to various parts of the country but the memories are cherished of times spent together.  Spending Thanksgiving with Tom, Rich, and Bob during those years helped us all deal with the lost of dear beloved family members as the first years can be the most difficult.  God works in wonderful ways even if we don't understand at the time. God is still in control and hear our prayers! Praise the Lord for the answers He gives us even when we may not understand them at the time! 

      Tonight, I work my first fully shift since the accident. As I pray for Bob, I know without a doubt God heals despite what people including Doctors can think. God can do the impossible!! With God all things are possible!!!! God's strength, grace, mercy, and love extends far beyound our comprehension!!!!!  Praise the Lord!!!!!