January 6, 2008

• Hello again

       It has been awhile since logging on to Xanga.  Life started to get busy to the point as I read about the beads in the last post there was little time for them even. Yet, it was a time to listen and learn instead of writing or talking. Is there more time now? Well?  It is a choice like God gives us freewill that I have been learning about. We can try to encourage others that appear to be in a downward at times blind spiral but I have been forced to remember people have freewill God gives them. 

  
  

       Since August some people in my life have been really self destructive including one of them having a funeral last week. These have been friends that have been raised in church but play the game of attending but outside of walls of church do whatever pleasures them thinking it is in part secret but not realizing the world is a lot smaller than they think it is and others are watching becoming confused in some cases as they have spout off things of God but actions are not pointing toward it.

  
  

        For some, I don't think they even see the downward spiral they were slowly taking for some it has been years but things can catch up with you no matter how secret you think you are being.  Ripple effects are real despite what we try to deny.  Our lives especially if we tell people we are a Christain or go to church are a witness of God to others as the watch what we do.

  
  

        This fall, I felt in ways like I have been in a dark glass oneway view sound proof box for some. If people that are friends are being so destructive how much more could I have done to help prevent the downward spirals as they lose focus of God in their lives?  I kept blaming myself wondering if I did this or that more. I prayed  and still pray. If my faith was stronger or I prayed more effectively? Yet, again freewill God gives people.

  
  

         It was a time for me to be quiet. It was a time for me to really listen. Two years ago things were interesting as I find that churches can be one of the most vicious places that can discourage faith due to lack of sincerity.  Yet, not all churches are the same. Some can lose their focus on God due to leadership losing focus with  them even being blind to it with ripple effects. 

  
  

        Yet, personally for me, no matter where I go to worship, my focus must be on Jesus Christ alone and not on people due to they will let you down repeatedly and betray you. They will betray you for their own pleasures and to gain peer acceptance in this world.  Some can be losing focus so slowly they are blind to it.  Sometimes, being around people can allow you to compromise in faith due to the norm level of seeking of those around you or actions they are doing or beliefs the are compromising to. Sometimes, worshipping alone or with a few sincerely seeking is far more valuable in seeking and keeping focus than being in a large group.

  
  

         Paul, Jesus, and others spent time away from others to grow in Faith in God so they can do what God wanted down in their lives. Sometimes, time away allows fewer voices around drowning out who I need most who is Jesus.

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